Best Friends... ...

Sora [right] and Riku [upper left] in Kingdom Hearts 2...



I just finished playing KH 2 [Kingdom Hearts 2]....well...after playing it, this game really made think a lot...[btw, i think a lot...lol]...What I meant is, are there any true and best friends in this world??

"Come on, of course there are!" Yeah, this is the most popular answer that I'll ever get from most of my friends....but as for the adults, this is what they are going to say, " There's no best friend in this world, it's all about you, yourself surviving in this competitve world." To tell you the truth, it's quite hard to figure them out which one is the correct answer.

True, in adults' world, it's all about money. Even the "bestest" friend you ever had since you two knew each other when in young age can even betray you for the sake of money. Is that what best friends suppose to be? Some even land their own friends in hot waters and run for their own lifes ignoring what's gonna happen to you. I'm kinda confuse now... ... Should I believe in best friends or me myself?

But still, in our teenage or maybe childhood memories, we strongly believe in best friends. Best friends is all we need in our lifes to make our lifes more happier. It's all for the sake of keeping our memories a sweet and enjoyable one so that whenever we think of it, it'll kinda comfort us. Maybe because we're still naive. Being naive, there's nothing to worry... All we are worried about is to search for best friends that we can spend time with.
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"A scattered dreams that is like a far-off memory,
A far-off memory that is like a scattered dreams,
I want to line the pieces up --,
Yours and mine."

Words like this,
Are a true friend,
Searching for his lost friend,
To bring back,
The chain of memories,
They onced had... ...

Scattered dreams,
Scattered everywhere,
Each corner of our hearts... ...

Scattered memories,
In the darkest places of all,
Lurking to search for its dreams... ...

Scattered dreams and memories,
I'll bind them together,
The bond of our hearts,
Create a whole new kingdom,
Kingdom Hearts,
Yours and mine,
Never fade away... ...

Thank you, my friend... ...
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Well, all in all, I still believe in true friends. Even if you're already working, you'll eventually find a friend who is as true as your heart. It's true, believing is what make miracles happen. True friends is what a person needs to face any uncertainties while you're alone prowling in the darkness... ...

A FM FANCLUB......XD!!!!

LOL...my competition is finally over..yay!!! No more torturing rehearsal and no more stress....wohoo!!!! Guess we won!!! YAY!!! Nah, we didn't won but we won....I mean the audience's heart. Anyway, here goes my long-winded story... ...

At first, when we arrived skool, we dressed up....guess what I wear the stupid sari at school and everyone was lafing all the way....HAHAHAHAHA!!! Die liao lar...my man's pride from 100% has dropped to 0% liao lor....sgt memalukan. What more to say, my "CREATIVE" teacher go and help me make up like Cleopetra [p/s:she has very thick make-up]...argh...i look like a clown...then my stupiak fren go and say something, "haiyo, where's your boobies? Did you bring? Haiyo, never mind liao lar, go take some paper and squezze them inside your sari!!!..." Argh...to make things worst, I had to wear a very curly wig and use a stupid dangling heart-shaped wand....argh...oh no...even my fren said" walau eh, you look "sexy"..can go dance the pole-dance [translation in chinese: gang lang wu" " lol....anyway...we set off at about 7a.m.

After arriving at the MBKS auditorium, lagi teruk keadaanya, many ppl look at me like what...then, i terpaksa wear the stupid wings and the ring one the head...to make sure i look like a FM - Fairy Godmother... ...guess what, we got the unlucky...or maybe i should say lucky...NO.1...argh we are the first one..HATE IT...I'M THE FIRST ONE TO ENTER THE STAGE ON SCENE 1!!!!! I LOOK LIKE A TOTAL STUPID BIG FATTY CLOWN FLYING AROUND THE STAGE!!! "calms down" Anyway, my teacher took it all down in the video cam...too bad..you can't watch....=P!!!

Continue....i dance and dance where all the ppl lafing lafing lafing...and i'm the indian fairygodmother picking on ppls....and poking my wand on others...."sigh" Anyway, i did won the audiences' heart...i even got myself a few fans...woot! Good for me....though we didn't win but the audienced love our drama..they even bantah how come we didn't win...but i guess judge's judgement has been finalised...so i guess...there's no point to fight against them...XD! The only thing is we're very happy coz we get the chance to experience performing on stage and of course entertaining the audiences with my butt swaying back and forth...lol...even some other school teachers said our drama is good... ...

Memandangkan saya ada fans, kamek adakan satu FM FANCLUB [translation: Fairy Godmother Fanclub!!! Who wanna join!!! I'm the president!!! Anyone who joins who have three wishes to be granted!!!} lol..."shakes my butt and fly in an abu-ne-ne style"...see ya folks..

p/s: want to know more about drama competition...wait patiently for my next post...lol!!!

Hopes and dreams left unfulfilled... ...

It's been a long time since I've first post in my bloggie. Well, I'm starting to feel that this bloggie is a bit too public. Kinda feels like millions of people reading your "Diary". XD! Anyway, I'll keep posting coz it's fun posting! XD!!

Ugh..just finishing performing my drama this morning. I looked like a clown on the stage where all the people laugh at me! It's simply coz I dressed up like a "half male half female". With my stupid cosmetics and stupid sari and stupid curly wig on, I looked the clown from the London Circus. I felt quite sad being laughed by people but I felt quite happy also being able to entertain people. But still, my man's pride has dropped to 0%!!! Argh!!! Anyway, guess what, I gained a lot of fan that day..XD! I guess I should organise a Fairy Godmother Fan Club. Who loves me? Come and join me!!!! XD!!!

Back to topic.. .. Well, I've been thinking lately...whenever I made up my mind to really gambate in my life, that stupid resolve of mine will only last for a few days or maybe a few hours only. "sighs"...what seems to be the problem? Argh!!! It's because of this stupid thing that stuck with me..."L.A.Z.Y."...I HATE HIM...it's allbecause of HIM I failed to fulfill my dreams and hopes!! It's all because of HIM my dreams ended..I don't want this to happen. I'll fight HIM till my very last breath!!! "Wah, you go to world war 2 meh? Tok until like that!! XD" Really, it's true, laziness is always every people's weakness. It's HIM who ruin every single who fall into HIS trap!! But not anymore, I'll STAND UP AND BEAT HIM! LOL!! Am I a bit too exaggerating? Anyway, I really hope my semangat berkobar-kobar to fight HIM will last until SPM is over... after that it's paradise for me....Nonetheless, eventhough SPM is over, L.A.Z.Y must be conquered every single day!

p/s: Come on lar! No more NATO liao! Must beat that stupid, if not you'll got langgar mati by him!!

Hopes and dreams left unfulfilled... ...

It's been a long time since I've first post in my bloggie. Well, I'm starting to feel that this bloggie is a bit too public. Kinda feels like millions of people reading your "Diary". XD! Anyway, I'll keep posting coz it's fun posting! XD!!

Ugh..just finishing performing my drama this morning. I looked like a clown on the stage where all the people laugh at me! It's simply coz I dressed up like a "half male half female". With my stupid cosmetics and stupid sari and stupid curly wig on, I looked the clown from the London Circus. I felt quite sad being laughed by people but I felt quite happy also being able to entertain people. But still, my man's pride has dropped to 0%!!! Argh!!! Anyway, guess what, I gained a lot of fan that day..XD! I guess I should organise a Fairy Godmother Fan Club. Who loves me? Come and join me!!!! XD!!!

Back to topic.. .. Well, I've been thinking lately...whenever I made up my mind to really gambate in my life, that stupid resolve of mine will only last for a few days or maybe a few hours only. "sighs"...what seems to be the problem? Argh!!! It's because of this stupid thing that stuck with me..."L.A.Z.Y."...I HATE HIM...it's allbecause of HIM I failed to fulfill my dreams and hopes!! It's all because of HIM my dreams ended..I don't want this to happen. I'll fight HIM till my very last breath!!! "Wah, you go to world war 2 meh? Tok until like that!! XD" Really, it's true, laziness is always every people's weakness. It's HIM who ruin every single who fall into HIS trap!! But not anymore, I'll STAND UP AND BEAT HIM! LOL!! Am I a bit too exaggerating? Anyway, I really hope my semangat berkobar-kobar to fight HIM will last until SPM is over... after that it's paradise for me....Nonetheless, eventhough SPM is over, L.A.Z.Y must be conquered every single day!

p/s: Come on lar! No more NATO liao! Must beat that stupid, if not you'll got langgar mati by him!!

A quarrel... ...

Ahem...today's practice is not that good...what i mean is someone quarrel with someone...at least i'm not involved...hahaha...anyway, it all started when the president of the drama club, lost the styro-foam?? (it's the white thing...dunno how to say)....we are using that as our props...but dunno how, she said she lost it...and the teacher got quite fired up but she didn't say anything and just ask her why. She explained that she was rushing that day to her BI tuition after the practice. Then, she went up the bus and she said that day she didn't take but she remembered she did but then she didn't take them...huh? I'm also coufused. Then, someone started to talk to her kinda roughly about the lost white thing...then a disaster happen....they quarrel in front of the teacher...one said, " I didn't take it!!! I'm positive!!!" one said," no, the problem here is how is the "white thing" lost?" they quarrel until MY shouted, " Shut up!!! You do nothing but scold me!!!" She left with her eyes red..."sigh"

Anyway, I really hope this drama will turn out to be a success....no more QUARREL PLEASE!!!

Me, myself & I... ...

argh...today practice again, so tired..."sigh" being that CHARACTER is so tough..argh..I looked so fake...can't stand it...anyways, all i have to do now is to give my best shot during that day...GAMBATE!!!

opps..a bit off topic...well, guess what I have a fren who got ignored by our classmates coz of her annoying attitude...what? !! You asking me whether I ignore her? Well, how to ignore her? She's sitting in front of me, so have to talk to her lor...."sighs" so soi...but...she's not that bad lar...just that she likes to bug others when you're doing stuff and asks some dumb questions....however, i've thought about something...If i were in her shoes, how would i feel if everyone ignores and hates me...here's a short story....the eng is a bit "kanasai"..so i call it "A once upon a kanasai story"....lol....

Dave's his name. Well, it's been his nature since he was born "it's just a wild guess" to bug at people while they're busying with their own stuffs. He just pissed everyone off. He's just bored of boredom. He needs someone to talk to... ...But, everytime he approaches someone, they'll say something like, "Oh no, I foresaw a catastrophy comin! Run for your lifes!!!", "Haiyo, don't kacau me lar!!!", "You play lar, you made me cry then i tell my momma!!!!", "eee....stop pesting me...you macam "chang ying" a.k.a. fly...owes flying here and there..cannot die one boh!!!!". Of course, he felt really hurt when everyone said those hurtful words. Nonetheless, he wrote something on the paper each day he came back from school... ...this is one of those that he wrote:

Happiness,
Is a joy for them,
Is a sharing for them,
Is a everlasting friend,
Holding hands together.

For me,
happiness means nothing,
they mean loneliness,
emptyness,
My heart feels like,
A broken glass,
The water flow endlessly... ...

This is what he wrote when he got hurt that day by his friends or maybe "strangers" instead...but that day, while he prayed to God, he sense something, he sense that happiness is slowly stopping the water from flowing in his heart...

Dave," I found my happiness,
Eventhough I'm lonely,
I found it,
Eventhough everyone hates me,
I'm happy... ..."

You might think he's crazy being so happy after everyone hates him...lol...but actually he means something like this:

Dave, " Eventhough everyone hates or ignores me, I still found happiness. It's because I existed in this world. It's because God created me. It's coz God gave me a chance to live in this world. It's God who wants to give happiness to me in this world. I'm grateful to find my actual happiness that is my existence in this world as well as in God's eyes...I'm happy...."... ....the end..

Well, what I wrote maybe might sound a bit lame or boring to u guys...but i seriously hope this girl that i talk about might be able to find her actual happiness not only through friends but through God as well....lol...I think I'm too imaginative and naive....lol....ooo...imaginative..naive..oo...these two words ryhme, don't they?

Upcoming Drama Competition....stressed out...

lol...today got scolded from teacher coz we talk n' joke too much during practice time..well, actually some of my friends playing word game on the blackboard...then I play "scissors-stones-paper" game with my frens b4 it's our turn for the next scene in the drama....guess what, my that stupid fren's name, N...he wrote the word "bisexual" on the board, then the teacher saw that and shouted," You people wrote dirty things on the blackboard..rub it offf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Then, me with big mouth laughed loudly while playing the childish game with my frens...of coz the teacher explode lar...she said something like, " Argh, you ppl never be serious!!!!! Fine, I'm gonna leave this practice to you guys...since you ppl are not serious..nvm..you'll all make a fool of yourselves on next monday, I don't care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" She grabbed her handbag almost wanna leave liao.. *Btw, our competition is on next monday..** we're all been scolded till we become like mouse oledi..all we do is to say sori lor.....*sighs* me and my big mouth...lol...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Anyway, after the practice, me and a bunch of my friends went to my fren's house to search for some music backgrounds for our drama....guess what, we stayed at until 8 p.m. no bathing. Ugh, we stink like hell!!!! Anyway, we ate our friends' house. Her momma bought some char kuey tiao *not that"char kuey tiao" use to whack asses lar..lol*...we ate like we hadn't eat like ages.."eh le, tak malu ke?" what to do, ppl ask us to eat, then eat lor...lol...then, one of my friend has to go back early b4 8p.m....her momma is waiting for HER at home with a vegetable pisau with the water boiling, added curry powder and a touch of salt, ready to COOK her alive...lol....anyway we went home after that...then arrived home..i'm so worn-out...but need to continue to search for music backgrounds again...*sighs* together with that yyr..we searched like hell...but half way.."i think today i soi soi a bit" the msn got dc and i cannot get connected...ugh..So, the only to do is to rely on yyr.."changed my mind"..i think i felt lucky that my msn got dc..can sleep early..yay!..really, i'm kinda tired lar...we're gonna have to practice everyday from monday until sunday..then the following week, monday will be our day to perform...hope don't sia soi me school..HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Oh....me do what drama? cannot tell, rahsia..sulit...once the competition over, i'll tell ya!!!!! LOL...me do what? Ever watched cinderella? There's someone in the cartoon who helped to change cinderella to become beautiful....guess who's that? Don't get shocked...it's true...lol...HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

p/s: for more details for d drama...wait patiently...lol....HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! opppsie, me mouth getter bigger liao..better stop lafing...HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Summer continues... ...

...the new beginning of another story...

As I grasp this feather,
Running towards the shrine,
I found someone,
Someone standing,
In front of the pond... ...

It was her,
She clasped her hand tightly,
She prays,
Each time she prays,
I saw each glistening droplets,
Dropping on to the waters... ...

At first,
I wanted to hug her,
So badly,
But, I stood there,
In silence,
Watching her as she prays... ...

Her prayers,
Reaches to my soul,
It's her last prayer,
To God,
She then smiles at me,
Then she vanishes... ...

As the deer pants for water,
She hopes she could dream,
Just once more,
But,
She can't... ...

I heard it,
This prayer,
My heart tells me
"I'll search for your dreams no matter what."
To never give up... ...

Summer continues,
Even if I failed,
I'll continue to search them with my soul,
This journey of fate,
Will last forever,
Till the next 1000th summer... ...

" I'll continue this journey of fate which will bind us together. I'll search for them. I promise."

The last dream... ...

...My last story...

I was awaken,
From the dream she has foretold,
I made up my mind,
To search for them... ...

Easier said than done,
Where are the dreams,
Where are the hopes,
Where are you,
Where can I find you?

Discouraged,
I walked alone,
Down a shrine,
A so-called Tsukihime* Shrine...

There is a pond,
The waters crystal clear,
As the wind blows and rustles,
I heard the sound of the waters,
I remembered something,
"You will always find an answer in the sound of the water"

I ran and ran,
I knew,
Someone's waiting for me,
The answer lies ahead... ...

That night,
The same dream awaits,
She appeared,
With tears,
"I'm sorry, I failed to search for them. It's my last dream..."
These words,
Puzzled me... ...

After those words spoken,
The sound of flapping wings,
Dissapeared,
So abruptly,
She left me only,
The feather of her memory... ...

...continues...

*Tsukihime - Moon Maiden*

Dreams and hopes... ...

My third story... ...

It's sad,
Deep inside me,
She is telling me,
Her dreams are still,
Scattered everywhere... ...

She flew up to the sky,
With her pure white wings,
Searching the last pieces,
Of her hopes... ...

She dreams and yet she hopes,
Without dreams,
She can't hope,
But still,
She tried so hard,
To dream... ...

Though she dreams,
Agony awaits her,
Every night she moans,
Just like a crow,
That can't fly... ...

It's the wings of fate,
That binds her,
That made her even more,
Even more to hope,
Her dream would never wither away... ...

...continues...

The 1000th summer... ...

My second story... ...

As I flipped through the pages,
Each page is filled with sorrow,
And sadness,
Sadness that'll,
Last for eternity... ...

Even if the pages,
Are being torn through time,
The curse'll never break,
It'll remain forever,
The chain of sadness,
Binding us forever... ...

Until the 1000th summer,
I heard a faint cry,
From the blue sky,
I saw a girl,
Weeping in the clouds... ...

Weeping bitterly,
As if she has lost something,
Something precious,
Something even greater,
Than the wonders of the world... ...

Until the 1000th summer,
I'm still confused and sad,
I search through the pages once more,
But still,
What did the girl lost??

A dream came,
I saw a girl,
She flew to me,
With her pure white wings,
She cries again,
She said, "I'm sorry I couldn't protect our dreams"
These words made me realize,
She was the one,
Still searching for the dreams,
Dreams that cannot be returned... ...

Dreams fading away... ...

My first story... ...

Every people,
Every dreams,
Is made in the highest heavens,
Dreams are meant,
To be true... ...

Every people dreams,
Dreaming on their own,
Hoping that,
Each dreams of their lives,
May become,
A great story of their lives... ...

But,
There's a girl,
Still searching in the dark,
For her dreams... ...

She's desperate,
Still searching high and low,
Finally,
She found it,
In the most darkest place of all... ...

She dreams,
But that does last for long,
The dreams started,
But slowly,
It faded away... ...

She knew,
She can't,
To protect her dreams,
It's so fragile... ...

Looking at the clear blue sky,
She weeps,
She moans,
She uttered her last words,
"I'm sorry... ...I've failed to protect our dreams... ..."

...continues...

A story of my own..."not really"...

It seems that I've been bored this past few weeks. Lying around imagining stuff..."not yellow stuffs".., playing games, surfing the net...Oh, recently, I've discovered another nice anime called AIR. At first, when I watched it, I thought it was another boring shoujo anime. But, as I watched along the episodes, this is not an ordinary love-love shoujo anime. The story is about the past and the present. It's kinda complicated and mysterious...so I'm watched it simply coz the storyline was quite interesting and most of all it's quite a sad anime. You might be thinking: What! A big guy like you watches a shoujo anime? What's wrong with you? Something wrong with your hormones? But hey, I only watch shoujo animes if the storyline is great...and I don't watch some shoujo animes with stupid plots and with all the love-love actions. For me, that's BORING!! Anyway, I decided to write this story of my own based on this anime AIR. I'm writing it in a poem form....ehehhe..though my English is a bit "kanasai", please do comment me and I'll try to improve..LOL..I hope so - _-''''..... I'm really following exactly the anime's plot, I'm just kinda write how I feel about this series...This anime really inspires me a lot...lol....